June 20, 2018
Writing. I’m still not doing it as much as I would like, but far more than I was and that feels good. This little journal I have started is helping me with that. Baby steps towards the goal of being able to sit in front of my laptop in a well organized apartment, in my own little space, with internet and just go. The stories (fictional and non-fictional) are eating away inside of me and I am dying to get this all out.
They say one of the first things you should do as a writer is develop thick skin. I am not sure if it is because I have not faced the actual rejection part of this journey as of yet, but I really feel no certain way about that. In my mind right now I feel like this. If you think I am no good you do not have to read another thing I write. Keep it moving, because I definitely will.
Now that may change after I put blood, sweat and tears into a book or script and someone says some downright mean and nasty things about it as if it is nothing. I may feel a little emotional inside. I guess I will see when I get there.
Some would probably say I talk more about writing than I actually write. To those I say this.
- You are reading this so I am writing. Insert smiling emoji here.
- I have already learned to not share as much as even a hint of an idea prematurely. Not only because of the anticipatory expectations of others resulting in pressure on myself. Also because some people are real quick to take an idea and live as if it was their own. So I would rather stay in the lab until it is presentation time.
- I do not have deadlines on this here journey of mine. I have enough things in my life to worry about and I am not going to make this one thing I love one of them. Just as I never chose a specific genre because I will not be placed into a box. I will not take on rules and place unnecessary guidelines on myself especially this early on. I refuse to turn this into a “job”. I want this to remain enjoyable and putting unneeded pressure on myself is the last thing I should do.
Yes. I want to be a writer full time, but in some cases I have to create my own rules. I will definitely take any advice and look to the greats for tips, but I have to figure out what works best for me. That is the only way I will find my true voice as a writer.